I feel like grief is a topic that is not talked about enough. The same with depression and anxiety. In fact, research has found that anxiety goes hand in hand with grief. It’s the missing stage that doesn’t get much attention. I guess my whole point of this is I sometimes don’t know what my purpose on this earth is…and the past few years I’ve found a sense of purpose in just being honest, real, and sharing the stuff that’s maybe not always inspiring or uplifting to read, but needs attention.

I lost another person in my life recently and was taken aback by the flood of emotions that came. Experiencing grief as a child is far different than experiencing it as an adult. As a child I subconsciously pushed away and forgot about the loss and trauma I went through, not allowing many emotions to be felt, until I peeled back the layers as I got older. I’ve lost a handful of people as an adult and the all too familiar emotional rollercoaster of sadness, fear, loneliness, anger, exhaustion, anxiety, depression, are all the same with each loss. Grief is ongoing, I personally don’t think there is an end. You have to go through it, you can’t push it away, you can’t divert your attention from it. Grief sucks. There’s no other way to put it. The emotions are intense and there is no timeline of when it ends. But there will come a time when you see the sun shine again. At times, I have to remind myself that death is part of life, and unfortunately, some of us experience a lot more loss and trauma than others, so it feels like you’re constantly grieving.

That’s it…just a share with no inspirational punchline at the end. I guess I just want people to allow themselves all the time they need to grieve. Much love to everyone who has lost. 🖤

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