I lost another person in my life recently and was taken aback by the flood of emotions that came. Experiencing grief as a child is far different than experiencing it as an adult. As a child I subconsciously pushed away and forgot about the loss and trauma I went through, not allowing many emotions to be felt until I peeled back the layers as I got older. I’ve lost a handful of people as an adult and the all-too-familiar emotional rollercoaster of sadness, fear, loneliness, anger, exhaustion, anxiety, and depression, are all the same with each loss. Grief is ongoing, I personally don’t think there is an end. You have to go through it, you can’t push it away, you can’t divert your attention from it. Grief sucks. There’s no other way to put it. The emotions are intense and there is no timeline of when it ends. But there will come a time when you see the sunshine again. At times, I have to remind myself that death is part of life, and unfortunately, some of us experience a lot more loss and trauma than others, so it feels like we’re constantly grieving.
That’s it…just a share with no inspirational punchline at the end. I guess I just want people to allow themselves all the time they need to grieve. Much love to everyone who has lost.